domenica 26 agosto 2012



August is pretty much finished. And at the end of this summer anything went as planned. 




I've done only one drive with the school, wich went good.

The summer love, turned out to be more than that, complicating the whole situation.




I found the first house i'm gonna live in by my self.

I'm having lots of lovely dinners, with lovely people.






If i have to be honest, this summer went much better than what i thought it would be. Is has been different from all the previous summers. This makes me realize how much i've changed in one year.






giovedì 9 agosto 2012



This image made me laugh. I coulden't find anything better to explain, my mood and how my life is going lately.

venerdì 3 agosto 2012

Got it right!

YEEEEEESSS!!!!!!

I passed the first test to get my driver licence!!!





I went to Imperia, on Tuesday, and i was so nervous!
My dad was there with me, trying to calm me down! I was so happy he was there with me, for me!
And when i got back home, my little brother Alessandro had made something for me:


Now, next week i'll start with the proper driving lessons. I'm really looking forward, i think i'll enjoy it very much.

This weekend i'll be going to Verdeggia for a short holiday with a friend. It's most of all, a relaxing weekend. We'll probably be the only one in that little village up in the mountains.

This week, i've been working: well, i've just been taking Matteo, the kid i'm babysitting to the beach.




Not a hard work at all.

And right now, while i was writing down the post, one of the best friends in the whole world surprised me.
He was working on a boat and we were waiting him for the end of August, but he just now he rang on my door bell. I might be dreaming..........





sabato 28 luglio 2012

How can't you love them?!




Thumper




Dust Bowl Dance




White Blank Page




Summer is flowing like a stream in front of me and i can't get into it. It feels so strange. Summer here has always had a different taste, but this year i just can't get into the summer mood.



Sanremo, Italy


I'm studying lots, the test is TUESDAY, maybe that could be a reason.


The job is fine, and recently i've taken my brother Alessandro with me. The kid i'm baby sitting is so cute and it's really easy to be with him, so i had no doubt they would have been friends quickly. But it was so nice to see how easy it was for them, for all the children, i guess, get friends. 
After a few question about what their favorite play station games and soccer team were, they get along really well. The funniest was that after a half an hour they were already calling each other "mate" and "dude".


And i was wondering why, as you grow up, everything gets harder. Why, it can't be so easy to be friends for the adults as it is for the kids. And i was also wondering when exactly, friendship, turns into something potentially difficult.

lunedì 16 luglio 2012

Something to think about!


Surfing on the web, i ended up on this site. I got captured by the title. All those pictures are not powerful for their beauty or their pleasantness, because they has been taken by a good photographer or with some difficoult tecnique.


Their powerfulness comes from the feelings they move inside each of us. They all remind the tragic events of 2011, and by the empathic tendency of the human being we feel destroied by seeing those images. 
The problem is, each of us, reacts in a different way according to the education, the environmental conditioning and many other factors.
That's why the description underneath each image is so important.
Misunderstandings are a huge problems for the modern comunications.
But actually, the real problem begins when "the misunderstanding", become the means of the media. 



I developed my examination thesis on this subject and if anyone is aware of new studies, I'd appreciate if you contact me.

sabato 14 luglio 2012

Grey's Anatomy

Tonight is my special night with my mum. I missed so much those nights while i was in Australia.
Normally we watch a movie or our favorite show, Gray's Anatomy.
We got addicted to that show since the first time we saw it. We sort of, always want to now what's happening next. We are watching at the 7th season now, and i can't think the 8th is the last one.


Tonight, is that night 



Hanging out!

After the birthday party for the girls, we had another special dinner with them. That night, we had some rostelle, a typical italian way to grill the meat, with a twist. Instead of the sheep meat we made them with moose meat, which is typical swedish. They were really yummy.

 


The girls, my brother and i, took care of the dessert. Meringues dipped in dark chocolate, no need to say they were a succes.


After all those parties i had to face my biggest fear: go to the dentist. Luckly everything was all right with my teeth and hopefully i won't be going to the dentist for a long, long time. 


mercoledì 11 luglio 2012

One Life



When I was a young boy 
I was living for the moment 
The world was wide open 
I had every choise 
But with so many choises 
I just didn't know what to do now 
All I say is just forget it 
If you tell me I'll regret it 
Just let it be what it is 
Coz it's so easy to say 

If I knew yesterday what I know today, where would I be tomorrow 
I won't let my soul slide away, I'd do whatever it takes 
Coz this time's only borrowed 

I got one life, one life, one life and I'm gonna live it 
I got one life, one life, one life and I'm gonna live it right 

My daddy sat me down, he said, 
"Son it's probably time to start making some plans" 
And I said, "No, not right now" 
With so many choises 
I just didn't know what to do now 
All I'd say is forget it when he'd tell me I'd regret it 

Just let it be what it is, coz it's so easy to say. 
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/j/james+morrison/one+life_20979666.html ] 
If I knew yesterday what I know today, where would I be tomorrow 
I won't let my soul slide away, I'd do whatever it takes 
Coz this time's only borrowed 

I got one life, one life, one life and I'm gonna live it 
I got one life, one life, one life and I'm gonna live it right 

You say the more you think you know what's right 
The less you do what you feel inside 
So I won't pretend that I always know 
I just follow my heart wherever it goes 
And I may not always get it right 
But at least I'm living coz I've only got this... 

One life, one life, one life, I've got this one life. 

If I knew yesterday what I know today, where would I be tomorrow 
I won't let my soul slide away, I'd do whatever it takes 
Coz this time's only borrowed 

I got one life, one life, one life and I'm gonna live it 
I got one life, one life, one life and I'm gonna live it right 

When I'm an old man, hope I'll be rocking in my chair 
Smiling to myself 
I'll tell my baby girl 
"You only get one life, so make sure you live it right"

Day Off

After the big party of last night, today i had a relaxing/studying day.


I dedicate my self to all the things i love to do or relaxes me. 







This morning, not easily, i woke up early and went shopping. Found some great stuff. 


Then i HAD TO, study a little bit.


After that i decided i deserved some relax. So i polished my nails, which i love to do. In the last three days, i've changed nail color three times. Ok, maybe, that was a bit to much.


As someone special once told me "It's exhausting to be fabulous!!!"




11 is the perfect number!!


Last night, since a long time, i had a wonderful family-dinner. It was my cousins's birthday and most of the family joined the party. We laughed all night long and re-discovered the joy of spending time together.

At the end of the party everybody were happy especially the little ones, that had a really Italian birthday party, wich can be much more chaotic than the Swedish one.



lunedì 9 luglio 2012

Happy days make you realise how lucky you are!

I'm getting use to enjoy life without being to stressed about the future...and i kinda like it. Today i had a wonderful day even if i didn't anything special. A little bit of shopping and spending the day with loved people  sometimes can be enough for be happy. The simple things, eventually, are the most precious.

Twenty years from now you will be more
disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by
the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail
away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in
your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

When i was in Australia, this sentence was a sort of inspiration for me. I lived my experience 100 % and i put all my self in whatever i did. But, sometimes, rest in the safe harbors, isn't so bad after all.



sabato 7 luglio 2012

Happiness has a sound


Music is a really important and always-present thing in my life. Everything seems easier with a good song in background and if the lyric is as good as the tune it's just perfect. I do listen commercial music and i actually listen a bit of every kind of music. But there's only a couple of singers/songwriters that really gets straight to my heart. I would share with you some of them.


I would say Adele is my favorite woman singer. She's so deep and her voice gets really emotional on me. The album 21, is just amazing. Love every single track, i would say that "Crazy for you" is my favorite at the moment, though.





I keep on trying, fighting these feelings away, but the more i do, the crazier i turn into.


As  i already let you know, my ABSOLUTE favourite, singer in the WHOLE world is Paolo Nutini. I can't help my self of loving him. Love the tunes, the lyrics, his voice, simply everything. I find my self in every word he sings. His new album is coming out soon, i'm so looking forward for that. From the past two albums he published "These Street" and "Sunny Side Up" i couldn't chose my favorite song, i love all of them. Lately the one i listen more often at is "Coming Up Easy" from his second cover. 


It was in love i was created and in love is how i hope i die.


Not long ago, i discovered a new English folk group, that is amazing: the Mumford and Sons. I don't know them really well yet, but i love all the tracks i listened to. My favorite is "Hold On What You Believe". They defenitely deserve to be with my favorites.


But hold on to what you believe in the light
When the darkness has robbed you of all your sight.

The group i just mentioned involves me emotionally. The last group i'll talk about tonight will be "The Black Keys". They are soooooo good. They make my day be better as soon as i listen the start of one of their tunes, i just want to dance and sing out as loud as i can. They have a great impact on my mood: always make me feel better.




It was a happy way to say goodnight, to you, world. 
I'm getting quite use to my life back home now. I got a job and i study most of my time.
Tanning lots, going out with friends, pretty quite days here. 

The highlight of my week was seeing a friend i hadn't seen for almost one year. He's working on commercial ships, sailing through America and Europe. It was pretty tough say goodbye, he'll hopefully be back in Agoust, but nothing is for sure yet.

Last night we had a family party: my cousin, my brother, his girlfriend and i. Had the best time ever that ended up having a bath in the sea at 5 a.m. under the rain.

And today my lovely twins cousins arrived from Sweden. Coming here to celebrate was their birthday wish. We'll have a lot of girl-time. Polishing our nails, taking care of our beauty and enjoying some quality time with people that love you and always will.

I keep building memories i'll keep with me forever, and i'm so lucky to have around all those wonderful people that keep building with me and for me.


Surfing on internet i found this really interesting article. When i got out the college i was so scared and confused i wish somebody told me what i read on this page. Check it out, it's worth it.

martedì 3 luglio 2012

A piece of heart

After nearly two months i came back from Tasmania i spoke with my australian family. I'll be honest, i didn't spoke to them yet cause i wasn't sure i could do that. Even though i miss them a lot, in a selfish way i avoid to speak with them because i knew it would hurt.


I think of them every SINGLE day. Whatever i do, i got some memories about them, and it always end up with me crying.
When i listen to the music i think about how we loved to move the table in the kitchen and dance like crazy. Annabelle loved when i lifted her up and danced with her. I still remember her laugh when we did. She was happy, and i was too.


The day before i left, after i pic them up from school i took them to the park. Felix was so happy he couldn't stop thanking me. I remember i was sitting on a bench, he run to me, hugged me and said: "Thank you Sarah, you are my best, BEST friend!!!".



Annabelle is using the toilete, no more nappies.



Lachie got in the older group of the State soccer team and will go to Coff Harbour in October.


And i wish i could always have a friend like Rachel beside me. She always knew what to say, to make me feel better, and i hope our friendship will last although the distance. 




New, not typical, summer passion.

I'm doing a crochet scarf. I know it's not a typical summer hobby, but i'm actually enjoing it. I'm not sure if  do like doing crochet or i like it just because it simply all i do. I'll be honest will you: i'm bored to death. I'm forcing my self not to work and i'm trying to relax and get my enery back to be ready for the stressfull winter is aspecting me, but i can't. I do not like to be here, and at least when i had a job i did something to keep myself busy. 


venerdì 22 giugno 2012

Summer AGAIN!!

Today summer starts officially in Italy! It has been summer weather for a while now, it's awesome.

This morning i finally booked my driver licence test: i'm a bit scared but i've still got time to study. 

This afternoon i spent some quality time with my little brother, Alessandro. And then, we were off to the beach.
Some days i just LOVE ITALY. 









martedì 19 giugno 2012

Hard times pass by, as the good ones.

Things are getting harder and busier.
I knew going back home to live with my parents would not be easy. But i never thought it would be this hard. Things are not going really well. I lost my independence, my privacy and my peace.
And everything i have to do seems much more difficoult.
I'm really looking forward to move to Sweden.

I'm trying to study for the driver licence as much as i can and at the meantime i'm trying to get a part-time job (which is not easy at all in Italy at the moment), but everything seems to flow opposite my plans.

I guess i can just do my best and hope that everything goes how i want.

sabato 9 giugno 2012

Back to school....just for one day!!


Today i went to my old College with my friend Benedetta to greet our teachers. It was actually harder than what i thought it would be.
In Italy last year of College can be pretty tough. You have to face an exam about all the subjects and you have to bring a thesis written by you. Three written tests: a italian essay, two pedagogy essays and a test about math, english, law and healt. After a week you have the oral test, that starts with your thesis and then is about all the subjects.
Last year by this time of the year i was almost feeling sick by the stress. I was really worried.
I guess it wasn't only the exam. After it you are suppose to be an adult. You have to face by your self, for the first time, lots of big and important decisions.
I think i was afraid of the meaning of that step as well. Today going back there, after all i've been through since i left that place, almost one year ago, was pretty emotional. It made me realise, how much things around me, i and my life has changed; and how different it has gone from what i had planned one year ago.

It was nice, though, to see the teachers and the rest of the stuf and see that we left something in them. They were all really happy to see us and proud for what we did in the past year.
The right way to say goodbye to this year and to say WELCOME to my new, up coming, life.

lunedì 4 giugno 2012

Small Cities Realities


Sanremo, my hometown, is a really small city. Everyone know each other. If something happens everyone will know. Everyone like to talk about each other and you end up to talk about somebody's else life and not live yours. That's one of the reasons i was really happy to leave this city. I was tired about the judgment of people i did not know even if i actually didn't care too much. Anyway today was the first time i went to the city with a friend. It's sunday and everyone were around.
Surprising, it wasn't too bad. I met some friends, not the best ones but still people that i had fun with. Of course i met people i didn't want to see as well. But at the end of the day i can say, that i don't know if i can resist here for 3 months but surely i could sqeeze out some more fun from those people i once use to hang out with.
Coming back here, and see the places and the people i left is strange. Nothing and nobody changed anything.
The experience i did, changed me a lot: changed my way of thinking, changed my plans for the future. It simply made me a different, and i hope better, person. All the people i met today, in 7 months, haven't changed anything in their lifes. They still hang out in the same places, do the same stuff, talk about the same things.
I absolutely don't think i'm better of them. I just think, that i'm nearly twenty, and i'm trying to do something real to make my future happen the way i want. I'm trying to work out something that suits me perfectly because i have to live with it for the rest of my life. I do not want my life to flow in front of me like a movie. I want to act in it, and i want to be a hundred per cent responsable of the way it takes.

giovedì 31 maggio 2012

London Twenty12

I'M BACK, again (too early of course). London is awesome. We had the best time ever, everything was just perfect: the people, the hotel, the city, the weather, EVERYTHING. Talking about the weather we had the hottest days London have ever seen, not a drop of rain.

DAY 1, May the 24th.

Well, we left home al 6 am. Once we got in London we were compleatly lost. Finally around 3 pm we got to the hotel, which was fantastic. The neighborhood was very pretty and we had the best room of the whole hotel. Just perfect.





We left all the suitcases there and we went to see the Big Ben, Westminster, the Parliament House, and Prime Minister's home. To get there we crossed St James park, and it was so pretty and peacefull i was speachless. I don't know if it was because we haven't got parks here, but it was absolutely beautiful.



Even though i had seen heaps of photos of the Big Ben, and that area of London, once i got there it was completely different from how i had imagined it. It was bigger, more beautiful, simply stunning.








On our way back to the underground, we met this AMAZING singer. He was singing No Woman No Cry by Bob Marley. I started crying in the tube and we stopped to tell him how good he was, and he sung us a song just for us. It was really emotional. I think he should not be singing in the tube, he should be famous so everybody could hear that beautiful voice and soul. I loved it.



Once we got to the tube we went to Embankment to have a drink before we collapsed in our beds for the tiredness.


DAY 2, May the 25th.

We woke up rested and ready to explore every corner of London. We started with the National Gallery: gosh i saw some of the most beautiful and famous paintings in the whole world. I saw Van Gohg's Sunflowers, i couldn't believe it. That painting reminds me of my last year of high school. I spoke about it at my art exam. I can't describe, the feelings that hit me when i saw Manet, Monet and Van Gohg's paintings. I was, and i still am when i think about it, speachless. 




Close by the National Gallery is Soho and Chinatown which were beautiful but i reckon it's not the prettiest area of London.




Then we went to Piccadilly Circus and Regent Street. I had seen Piccadilly in lots of movies so it was nice walking there with my best friends. 




Close to Piccadilly Circus, it is the M&M's store. We spent something like 3 hours in that shop, it was more like a museum. The people whom worked there were the friendliest i've ever met and made us laugh a lot. 





Regent Street was the shopping paradise. But even though i'm a student (a broke student) and i couldn't enjoy too much that haven i couldn't help my self from buying, i bet all the women that are reading understand what i mean. 



That night, our friend that lives in Luton, Letizia, joined us and we went to Piccadilly once again to have dinner.



DAY 3, May the 26th.

We lived in Notting Hill and Portobello Road was next to our street. On Saturday we went to the famous market. It was busy but worth to see: very colorful.



We had lunch at Green Park and in the afternoon we went to Madame Toussaud, the wax museum. It was huge, much bigger than what i expected. We spend a fun afternoon. 




And we got a bit carried away. 






That night we met a friend that lives in London and he took us to Sticky Fingers the restourant opened by Rolling Stones's, Bill Wyman.

DAY 4, May the 27th.

On Monday morning we were determined to see the guard changing ceremony. So we woke up early and went to Buckingham Palace. It was probably the hottest day of the week, and we arrived there early to be able to get good places and see all the ceremony. It should have started at 11.30, around 12 we got closer to the gate to see if it was happening something and this is all we saw: 



After that disappointment we went to the Tate Modern, which was a complete success. Much better than what i thought. 


Then we went to Harrods, even though we couldn't afford anything it's pretty amazing to see. 



After Harrods we had walked all day and we were exausted even if it was only 5 pm. Two friends went back to the hotel; me and Benedetta wanted to go to Covent Garden but since it was Sunday all the shops were shutting. So we decided, or i did, to go to Tower Bridge which was 15 underground stops away.
Forty minutes later we finally got there but we couldn't see the bridge. At last we found it but we arrived from the wrong side. We were to tired to walk to the other side and get a better view so we took the tube back to Notting Hill Gate. That will definitely be the first place i go to next time in London. 


Then we had to hurry to meet our friend in Liverpool Street. He took us to a really nice indian restaurant.

DAY 5, May the 28th.

The second last day we went to the British Museum. It was huge, really nice even if it was not my favorite.


We spent there all morning and then we went to Covent Garden and Oxford Street. Since it was the end of the holiday, we hadn't any money for shopping but they are still really nice areas to visit. 
We went out for dinner with our friend Andrea and once we got to the hotel Benedetta and I had the longest chat we had had for a long time sitting out on our balcony. It was nice to talk to her, it's one of the person i missed most of all when i was in Australia. She is my best friend, but since i had been away for a really long period and we had had different experiences in the last months i was a bit frightened that our relationship wouldn't be the same. Luckly this holiday confirmed that we are probably closer than what we were. Being apart just made us notice that we can't live without each other.

DAY 6, May the 29th.

Well, that was the day to say goodbye to this beautiful city. A bit sad. We walked around Notting Hill and took the famous red bus. Then we had to get to Gatwick with the underground and the train that took a while. We arrived in Nice at 9 pm. Long day. It was nice to sleep il my bed even if my room is still a mess.